It is hard to believe summer is HERE! I have been holding out on writing a post about my schedule this summer because I wanted to be sure I knew what I was talking about. I also should note that as I am writing this, I am bouncing a baby in her bouncy chair with my foot and listening to her "talk" rather loudly, and watching my boys attempt to clean their room, which isn't going so smoothly at the moment. Apparently, their system they had going isn't working and I am overhearing complaining to eachother about how one isn't pulling the weight that he should with lots of frustrated sounds...so sorry if this post doesn't all make the sense I want it to. Some people can pull off doing multiple things at one time, but not me. I am a little distracted at the moment.
Which brings me to my next point. Distracted.
Family is awesome. It is the heart of what I love most in this world. Watching my children grow makes me a bigger person.
And watching my boys with our newest person in the family pretty much breaks my heart daily. I love nothing more than to watch them love on their baby sister. They already love and care for her more than I ever thought they would. It is beautiful. And exhausting. We have a baby that we are all making room for and it is going as well as it can be, but the truth is, I am distracted. All the time. I can't really use the phone. Ever. I daydream of taking naps everyday at 3pm but I don't take them, I can't keep appointments scheduled very well. I forget about friends at times. I forget what I was saying ALL THE TIME. It's all the way it should be for this short time of infanthood, but it's caused me to be aware this summer and say, I cannot do workshops.
My role right now is being a mom. And I love every bit of it. Even the frustrated sounds I was hearing as I started this, because now they have turned into laughing and playing with eachother sounds. My foot has stopped bouncing, because my baby just fell into silent sleep. If I add anything more I think I would start to miss all the little moments I am constantly grateful for. The ones that get you through the day. I would also get frustrated and maybe even resentful that I have too much to keep up with.
My very good friend once said that this phase of parenting I am in now is "long days, short years." Isn't that great? I will never get these long days back with these guys. And really, how long do your kids actually beg to hang out with you?
I wish in many ways I could teach again this summer. But the answer is, no workshops this summer. I miss all of you and the support you give. And I love and miss watching children create in my classes. But this short time will be spent undivided with my people. It's my privledge. I love you all and wish you a wonderful summer! I will be ready to teach again this fall once everyone gets settled into their own routines, so get ready!
